~FeiX

Well I guess we should be glad the world hasn't ended yet... yup, thats a good thing. Whats happened? What should i talk/write/type about?

Whats new? .. ok.

December... my birthday, nothing eventful as per usual. However I did finally pay my car off. I own it, the title is on my computer desk. Its over.

Phew

My grandfather recently passed away back in november. It was so strange... months before he passed, he was fine, riding bike everyday.. than started having issues with his hip, which turned into bone cancer.

It was odd, seeing this aged, yet powerful old man suddenly begin to degenerate. His body shrank, he shaved his mustash... it was almost another person. But when I saw him, heard the words he barely managed to rasp, and that glean of wisdom, and everything that embodied him in his eyes, through the haze of morphine.. he was still him.

Such a powerful will.

The funeral was... frankly huge. There were so many people whose lives had been touched by him. The church could not accomidate the parking space, and not everyone could fit in the church itself. And despite all his friends and loved ones.. I still wonder.. why was I the only one who stood there and watched them burry him when everyone else had went back into the church?

Was it one last time to try to get a glimpse, and try to understand fully the man he was in life? One last chance to say goodbye? ... I can't figure it out; the silence but for the sound of shovels...

Anyway, it just made me think. Think what? I'm still trying to figure that out.. maybe I'll spend the rest of my life trying to figure it out.

My sister is now 2 years old, and a terror as such is expected, but shes cute. I think its odd how she recongizes me already, everytime i come over, i can now expect to hear "CO - DDDYYYY!!!" heh.

Maybe its just a more intimate, personal dealing with the cycle of life thats got me all perspectiv-ie-ish. Maybe my own desire to grow old with someone, and look on my own children.

Damn I'm 24 and thinking like this already... o.O

Oh, that reminds me, (how? Don't ask how my thought patterns work, you may be afraid) but i went to my Mum's the other day, and went downstairs in the basement to my brother's room.. and he was wearing a friggin hairnet?! What the hell? lol. A little later after that happened, i saw why. He must've gotten his hair style redone, he looks like a hyper-blonde backstreet boy. @.@

But... no real other big things have really happened... Oh! i remembered one! A good friend named John recently got back from Iraq in one piece. Thats good to see.

This is the part where I state I'm running out of things to say.. because I am.
So with no further ado,
The End